Halfway Done Radiation! | Love Your Life

My halfway point of radiation was yesterday! Yay! I cannot believe that I’m halfway done! I feel like I just started and was getting nervous for another unknown part of this journey. 


Throughout this journey, it is so easy to wish time would fly by. When I was going through chemo, I couldn’t wait for those five months to be over. Here we are in June almost July and I cannot wait to be done radiation, Herceptin infusions and get my port out. When I think of that, that brings me to next year – 2017! Woah! I don’t want it to be next year yet. I don’t want to be almost thirty years old. I want time to slow down. We are already halfway through 2016. Where did the time go?!


It’s so easy to want this struggle to be a part of my past. I want to never think about this again, but I don’t want to wish the days, weeks and years away. I’ve been having a difficult time with the life after treatment and what that looks like. I find myself sad and when I look back on the battle I’ve won, I cannot help but smile. I am proud of myself. I fought the hardest battle of my life… And I’m winning. Fatigue, radiation burns or scars cannot get in my way. I will keep making lemonade with life’s lemons and man, do I love lemons! Never give up and never wish your days away. The future is beautiful and bright. I can either be sad all of the time or happy, I choose to wear a smile instead of a frown.

Today at radiation, a gentleman came up to me and said, “Wow. You are always smiling. How many rounds do you have left?” I smiled and told him I’m trying to stay positive and that I’m halfway done. Little did I know, this man was having radiation to his mouth and throat and he could barely talk. My heart felt sad for him. It seemed like he was having a tough day since he told me his mouth burned so badly. As I look at my skin turning a bit pink, it’s a reminder that this journey is so different for many people. The man then walked away without saying another word. I hope that he will be smiling when I see him tomorrow. This sucks, but it could always be worse. Keep smiling!


Xo,

Monique 

3 thoughts on “Halfway Done Radiation! | Love Your Life

  1. mycancerchic says:

    What a great reminder to focus on the NOW. I find myself struggling with the same emotions and then realize I don’t want to wish my life away. Though this year has been one of the hardest, I also have some of the most amazing memories. I hope you continue to smile and find the positive in your experiences.

    • moniquerose8 says:

      I’m glad I’m not alone with these emotions! It’s definitely a rollercoaster ride with many ups and downs. I hope you continue to smile too! (With your amazing hairstyles of course! 😉 ) xo

  2. Cheryl (mom) says:

    Well said, once again! I have been thinking of that man also lately and my heart is also feeling very heavy! I have been saying a prayer for him and hoping that one day soon he will have peace and happiness. Your journey in radiation is quickly coming to an end and you have fought this battle like a trooper! I am so proud to call you my daughter! I love you and I’m so happy to have been able to share this precious time with you! Keep wearing that Beautiful smile, for it will get you through anything❣😘👍🎀

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